Revelation(?)

I’ve been busy and off on other tangents for the past several months; which is why I haven’t been updating. I think the reason I write is to sort things out for my self, not to mention the catharsis of putting my thoughts down on “paper”. As always, this blog is all for me, ultimately, but those of you who happen to read along, you are more than welcome to glean from my experiences or laugh behind my back.
In my ever present search for “truth”, I have read several books, including The Bible Now by Richard Elloitt Friedman, The Bible Unearthed: Archaeology’s New Vision of Ancient Israel and its Sacred Texts by Israel Finkelstein, Who Wrote the Bible by Richard Elliott Friedman, and So You Thought You Knew: Letting Go of Religion by Josh Tongol. All are impressive works, and I recommend anyone searching for a bit of truth to take some time and read these.
I have been ruminating over the information contained in these books for some time, and I’ve been pretty satisfied that I was at a good place in my “understanding” of “truth”. I thought I had it all figured out. That’s mostly what I haven’t been updating this blog; no reason for the catharsis of writing down my thoughts.
But recently, I have started questioning things again, and got started on another search.
The one thing that I keep coming back to was the prophecies in the Old Testament about the branch and the “stone not made with hands” from Daniel. These kept me hanging on to the idea that there must be something of value in Christianity. So I started searching and came across several websites that made a lot of sense and , for the most part, answered my questions about these prophesies. godisimaginary.com, rejectionofpascalswager.net, and debunkingskeptics.com all put together the research from other sources that I have previously read and clarified it to the point to where I can pretty confidently say that I don’t think that what we refer to as the bible is the inerrant word of god. But I still feel like there has got to be something of a god out there. I’m pretty sure that christianity doesn’t have all of the answers, and is a flawed belief system, but the anti-christian bias of these sites was a bit off-putting.
After more searching, I came across danizier.wordpress.com and I have to say that it’s probably the most informative, convincing work I have read to this point. Not only does he make the case that Christianity is flawed, and not the “only way to God”, he brings up several well-thought-out points that I haven’t had the intelligence to consider on my own.
One brilliantly fantastic point he makes is that the Apostle Paul and Jesus were presenting two opposing teachings. I intend to do my own research into this and read their viewpoints for myself, but everything he said on the subject makes perfect sense in light of all of my previous research.
One thing that I particularly appreciate about the author, Davis D. Danizier is his attitude toward christians, and all religions, for that matter. He is the epitome of a loving, considerate person as evidenced in his writings. I have read his entire site and probably will go back to it many more times. He has apparently published a book that is an expansion of the information on his site, and I might purchase that just to get more information.
Anyway, as it stands now, I’m not so sure that I can call myself a christian, although I do still believe that the teachings of Jesus were of value, and maybe even god-inspired, but I have no way of proving or disproving that. I do believe that Jesus’ teachings are worth emulating, and if more of us were to take them to heart the world would be a better place. Maybe that’s what faith is… So i suppose, until I find a better nomenclature, I’ll still call myself an agnostic christian. A very liberal agnostic christian, but one, nonetheless.

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